October 27, 2010

{ right, left, right, left }

What a year this is... sometimes I find my feet skipping right through and other times they just drag limply... So I'm thankful for this reminder to 'march on'... There must be a light at the end of the tunnel... and we hope it's not a train!

October 17, 2010

{ fall @ Northshore }

Neal and I decided to take advantage of a beautiful, sunny afternoon and take a long overdue photo-trip to the beach. Here's a peek ...
playing in the leaves :)
Northshore Beach
and a walk in the woods...

Hope your weekend was just as sunny!

October 9, 2010

{Thanksgiving}


Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend. Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today, and creates a vision for tomorrow.
-- Melody Beattie

October 6, 2010

{seeing beyond the ceiling}

I lay in the ultrasound room of our local hospital this afternoon, staring at the ceiling. Wondering if the news would be good, or the same old story. I've struggled with some annoying health issues, and though I like to imagine I'm in there as an excited expectant mother, I'm not. Over time and repeated visits, I've learned to tune out the baby pictures on the wall, the Thank You notes posted above the crinkly bed, and the smiles of happy healthy couples sharing a joy my heart longs for. Vague memories of a heart-breaking miscarriage experience often re-surface, as I enter the same room where I lost the only pregnancy my body and heart has ever known.

Today I was just hoping for better news, and staring at the ceiling. In that small moment my eyes were drawn up to a grate which exposed deep inner-workings of ducts and reflected the soft, gentle light which was pouring into the room below. There was so much more going on in the void of the celing, things you would never notice by looking at the tiles which covered the inner workings from view. Like staring at a grey and cloudy sky, forgetting that above, the sun still shines. I realized, my life has a ceiling. A ceiling of assumptions, routines, habits, expectations and steeled emotions. It's like God was whispering 'Look, look at all you cannot see, there is so much there, just look beyond the ceiling'.

So Lord, continue to draw my eyes upwards, when times are hard and my face is downcast. Help me remember there is so much more beyond the ceiling. Inner workings I cannot always see, purposes beyond my own understanding. Draw me out of the assumptions, the disappointments that grow into expectations void of hope. Teach me to see beyond the ceiling...

October 4, 2010

{dear Neal}

This little verse so perfectly expresses how I feel...
(many thanks to Chelle's tumblr and here for the inspiration)
and in my own words...
'You are the farm I have not bought' (...yet...)
Smiles,
~A~
P.S.
... because I know you are sneaking a peek in class *tsk tsk*